I Going to Live My Life, Again.

well, for me is is 12.15am in the morning i should be sleeping by now, and since my messiah haven come down and hit the bed...(she rather to have the couch then bed XD), i decided to pop open my blog and leave another day journal here...
well, today is a lovely day, coz i spent most of my time gaming AGAIN!!!!!, Fucking rediculous man, and i plan to play longer, i really doubt i can concerntrate at work now, nonono... i need to move back to my schedule and be prepare for my freaking...

Keeping Track to what i done in this 2 weeks, well it is fasinating, i have done almost 0 improvement, (look carefully, i said almost), well in fact i have SOME improvement, which include stop gaming so much, or so long, start to learn how to cook, and...

I not sure why everytime i decided to make a change to my life, it ended up being all the same again, please someone please tell me why? Maybe because i have not enough will power to let me go straight to what i think i should do, and i ended up doing...

昨天是第一天吧？你对我不理不睬，其实一开始我是觉得你有什么事情的，过后突然想起前天我们的讨论，让你知道我在想什么，其实我在想的东西很可能让你崩溃吧，但是不讲出来我们的关系就会崩溃的，至少现在我知道我们还是爱着对方，宏和小妹的关系已经是很糟糕了，宏的眼神和反应已经完全变了一个人，你又知道吗？就算小妹现在离开他也会冷笑一下然后就没事了。你要我跟他一样吗？
只是我真的很感激你，感激你听我说的话，感激你给我那么多空间，感激你就算是你会受伤害，但是你还是愿意接受我讲的东西，还有，感激你一直那么爱我。其实现在我更加觉得期待了，再次见到你时的喜悦，和期待，真的真的。。很奇怪的感觉，一面想念，一面兴奋，哈哈哈哈。...