Windowsill Dreamer

I've had this idea for a contemporary roaring through me for months now, but I haven't been writing very much lately. Here's a scene I wrote for it, i'm hoping this makes me want to keep writing.
There was only one way to make this night better. Even when Ollie and I were dating, I still needed this solace before bed, this time alone where I could just be. My head’s been pounding all day, this hangover threatening to never leave me, and I know...

I'm single. It took me a week, but I finally did it. There was no getting past that night at his house. I don't think I'm ready to be in any sort of relationship right now. I have other things to worry about like university and seeing my friends. Time...

Kissing is something for the books, isn't it? The idea of it sounds like it could be gross. Lips mashing together, bad breath, tongues jetting out like dogs, but kissing, actually kissing, is in a league of its own.  Lips melt together and become one...

There's something wrong.
I'm absolutely the worst girlfriend ever. I've waited so long for this and this is what happens? What's wrong with me?
Two nights ago, when Kyle and I were hanging out after school as usual, he tried to kiss me (you know because we're in a relationship) but I pulled away. I don't know why I couldn't kiss him. Maybe I didn't want to? Maybe I was just scared? We have a...