Gem is My Name

Sometimes I feel obligated to NEver lament about how hard it can be (to the flesh) to live for Christ.
My flesh wants what it wants and it's only my love and desire to live for God that tells it to shut up!
But I fail, a lot! I give in to my flesh and rationalize it, and then God uses my messy situation to show me my own impure heart to bring me to repentance....

"become content in God alone, and then He will send your mate..."
that statement,and variations thereof is what I've been told, read, etc about what God's requirement (of me) is before He will deem me ready for my mate, and usher him into my life.
i'll confess, that statement haunts, disturbs, and frustrates me. and often makes me feel inadequate and undeserving....

I'm not dating anyone. I'm not sexually involved with anyone. I don't talk to or consistently interact with anyone. But here I am, once again; heart attached to, thoughts consumed with and mind focused on some man!...who has no idea. How tragic &...

I had a pretty good week; super busy, but good. Perhaps it's the fast, but I feel so focused, less restless, unbothered and at peace. The persistent thoughts of and attention to a certain person are less present. I like that.
Speaking of which, Lambchop put me on to mint.com, which I'm convinced at this point is a God send! It's the last piece of the puzzle that I needed to help me organize and settle some financial goals! I'm really excited about it and I've been telling...