My Sanctuary

I was ashamed of loving you.
I was ashamed that I fell so hard for you, and gave so much to you, when it turns out that you never cared about me at all. That you were just toying with me.
I felt so foolish, felt so much shame, that I lashed out in contempt and hostility in an attempt to transfer that shame....

New Year's resolutions:
1) Finish the online course on coding and making games.
2) Get back to exercising once a week (was alright for the first half of 2015, then totally stopped during the second half)

Today I want to express my gratitude for whatever coincidence or whim of fate that saw me paired up with my current partner for my research project.
Okay so technically we're each doing separate projects and all, but we still need to work together a lot to create materials for the experiments, coordinate information, and bond over our mutual suffering....

Another semester over.
Well, almost over, just finals left and it'll be done.
In the midst of all the stress and whatnot, I often forget to be grateful for all the good things that have happened this semester, and sometimes I get so caught up in my thoughts going round in a destructive spiral that it seems as if nothing good did...