I know, right?

I never planned on having children.
It was not something I desired. I'm not a kid person. I don't dislike children. I'm just not a kid person. A year ago, the thought of holding a baby made me balk. Whenever there are children in the room, I'm polite to them and I think they're super cute...

I've learned a lot of things in the past year. Most of those things involve bodily fluids.
But one thing I was shocked to learn is one thing that shouldn't have really shocked me at all:
Mean girls grow up to be mean moms.

I think it has been a year since I left. Strange.
I knew I was going to resume blogging after the pregnancy, but I wasn't sure when or where. I spent months wondering if I should jump-start this blog or simply start a new one.
After all, I've changed completely since last fall. I'm not the same person. I've gone through an emotional and physical transformation. I guess having another human being ripped from your body will do that to you. I also just think I've been forced...

I fell off the grid.
I thought it would be fitting to come back here this afternoon, seven days after my blog's five year anniversary.
You see, back in November, my life kind of turned upside down. I was already incredibly unhappy at the time. My depression has snowballed over the past few years. I stopped being interested in things that interest me. I had no desire to write anymore...