all i am is

I had every right to fear that skating party.  At 5:15, 15 minutes before I was to pick Millie up, I got a phone call.
Mom.....
Millie?  Is that you?

I just dropped Millie off. At a skate party. She's never been skating. What kind of a mother am I to have never taken her 7 year old skating?
I don't know.
And as we drove up and saw the swarm of girls, not one did Millie know. And all of a sudden she refused to exit the vehicle. And I stood outside. by myself. wearing corderoy pants old enough to have lost their corderoy, and a baggy blue $5.00 turtleneck...

If I post in truth right now, it might be depressing. I tend to post during the blues, asking the keyboard to pull me into the yellows. So perhaps a list to limit the damage I might make in the world?
I really, really loved the muppet movie. One of few movies I could watch over and over again....

I now own a heating pad. And my feet are full of joy. Beautiful invention.
I'm hoping the warmth spreads. Every now and then I get the craving for something to inspire and excite. To feel something other.
Like support. Warm support. Saying, "Awesome, so glad you are doing this, what a great choice, nice work, you can do this, don't give up, keep going, keep moving, this is for you."...