Being B...

Vir die afgelope twee jaar het ek soos die spreekwoordelike skilpad in my dop weg gekruip, terug getrek en weg gesteek van dinge om my, want party keer is dit net makliker, maar daar is 'n tyd, en ek dink dit is nou tyd.
Gister, skielik uit die bloute het een van die Biekies in trane uitgebars en baie hartseer vir my vertel hoe baie word Ouma gemis en na haar verlang, maar dat hulle nie van ouma wil praat nie, want as hulle wel doen, dan word hulle hartseer.  En sonder...

Days will go by where I am fine, days where I do not cry or have an uncontrollable urge to huddle in a little heap and snarl at someone, days where I smile at the world and it's people, days where I feel comfortable.
But then, everything will change in an instant, the burning hole in my chest will burst open, raging, I suffocate, no matter how hard and how deep I try to breathe. The pain suck you in, no matter how hard you fight....


On the left : 31/08/2013  On the right : 14/10/2013
 For as long as I can remember, I struggled with my weight, maybe because the boy I dated when I was 16 told me that my thighs were fat, not that I was overweight at all at that time, but somewhere deep inside in stuck, and refuse to let go... After...

I have totally neglected my blog lately, it has (and still is) been hectic trying to keep all the schedules running smoothly…it’s been hectic just to keep them running, never mind smoothly, but we are getting there.
Life is not always warm and fuzzy, but we development different coping mechanisms to get us through those moment and carry on, carry on as if nothing is wrong….just carry on....